Some days February 15, 2005
Yesterday all 3 of us woke up in varying states of tired and grumpy.
I was absolutely miserable, completely devoid of any confidence or self-belief and really just wanting to curl up in a ball and disappear. Going to work felt like the hardest thing I’d ever done and I spent the day in the office resisting the urge to just pack up and go.
Then, late at night, when I couldn’t sleep, misery turned into rage. At who or what I couldn’t tell you. And lying in the dark burning with resentment and anger made it all the more difficult to sleep. I did sleep, though, eventually.
Today I’m tired and not the cheeriest poppet in the world, but I’m doing OK. The world just seems an easier place to be in. And yesterday’s angst feels inexplicable.
Some days are just like that.
Yes, yes they are.
Dr Bean recommends cups of tea, snuffles from 4 legged friends, cuddles from 2 legged boys and quite possibly chocolate and doona.
brain chemistry is sometimes like that
Curling up in a ball, with headphones and music on, tends to make sleep come quicker on these nights, for me anyway.