Just Nicky

Where did it go? November 28, 2005

Well today was what I think you’d call ‘wearing’. Although Finn’s humour improved during the day, he was still difficult the whole time. I don’t think he’s sick, though, just 2. He’ll be going to childcare nice & early tomorrow and staying all day.

I rang my colleague. I tried him at the office & he wasn’t there. I spoke to another colleague who is in the same situation as R & I and she is distraught about the whole thing. Her husband was recently made redundant because the clothing company he worked for was sold. He’s got another job working at Crown on week nights which leaves my colleague looking after their 2 year old ( about 8 weeks older than Finn) on her own for much of the time and she’s finding it really tough. All the stuff going on at the moment is, I think, the straw on the camel’s back for her.

I rang R at home and his attitude is much the same as mine. He really doesn’t want to play this game any more. He was planning to apply for the job, though, and be really clear in the interview about what he will & won’t do in the hope that it puts him out of the running. He was under the impression that opting out was not an option, so I looked it up on the company intranet (thank god for remote access). If I elect not to apply for the job I may still be assigned to another role for which I’m considered suitable. I’m not sure which would be worse, applying for the job and getting it, or not applying and ending up working for the bag who was my boss when I first returned from maternity leave (are you reading this M?).

I’m still going to see the financial adviser tomorrow, but now I’m not quite so certain about what I’ll do.