Procrastinating July 24, 2006
I sat down at the computer planning to work on my third assignment while Finn was engrossed in watching Jakers. The flaw in my plan came when I decided to check blogs and stuff while composing my thoughts.
That was nearly an hour ago. Finn is now on his way to bed - a story with Dad being the preamble to being tucked in. I’ve done no work on the assignment and won’t make a further attempt tonight.
Tomorrow is another day and, I think, crunch time for this subject. If I don’t get my shit together to do the assignment in time for submission by Friday, I’m going to pack this one in. No, this is not good, but I really don’t like the subject and am finding it all but impossible to muster any enthusiasm for the assignments.
The confirmation of enrolment for the next subject I’m planning to do arrived today and I got all excited about it. I can’t wait to ditch this dog and move on to that one. I’m considering enrolling in a second subject for the next study period because I want to get on with things and because I think that having more, rather than less, to do is a good thing.
I think there’s some kind of hypnosis involved to make the time fly by.
I am way more productive when there is too much to do and too little time. When things are cruising I can’t get my mind on the job. I think I am conditioned for only high stress performance.
I suspect years of working to ridiculous deadlines in under-resourced teams has done much the same to me. I seem only to be able to order my thoughts and plan when I have a bit too much to do, otherwise I just drift along.